If you would have asked me that yesterday, I would have told you that I HATE it - because yesterday I totally did. You know why? I'll tell you. Because I feel fat. My clothes don't fit. Because I have a lovely issue with acne just below my jawline. Because my emotions are going crazy and it's incredibly difficult to manage them. I'm determined to not use pregnancy as an excuse to freak out at people. It's hard though. I don't get weepy and cry like most women. Instead I lose my patience and get angry...and yes, blow up. I hate it. And the thing is, at that moment, I have no idea why that particular issue is worth getting angry over (because most of the time it's not), but somehow I can't seem to let it go. I had quite the emotional weekend. Several times I totally flipped out over very minor, minor issues - but we won't go there. And that is why I HATED pregnancy this weekend.
BUT today I had a doctor's appointment. And today, even though I'm only 10.5 weeks along, I got to hear my baby's heart beating!! It made my heart happy. And once again, it reminded me that this will all be worth it in the end. I need these reminders every now and then. AND you know what else? When I got weighed today, I only gained 3 pounds since my last visit, which was about a month ago. That is a good sign. I'm happy about that too. (You only need to gain 2 - 4 pounds during the first trimester) AND one more good thing - I'm only a week and a half away from my second trimester. I'm so ready to not feel so exhausted!
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